December 13, 2013

This is my view of what happen December 13, 2013. As many of you know a shooting happened at my dads school that day this is his view of it http://thefischbowl.blogspot.com/2014/01/121313.html. I am sitting in my Language Arts Class ( I had no idea that any of this was going on). We where about to head down to the library to use the computers in there to make logos for a unit we were doing. So I am sitting in my Language Arts Class and all of the sudden I hear students and staff we are on lock out that means that we can't go outside the school come over the intercom. This  is my Language Arts Teacher version of that day http://tbdteacher.tumblr.com/post/70006038242/teaching-tip-its-okay-to-cry. Before I knew anything I sensed that it was more than just something that happens pretty often because my Language Arts teacher kept leaving to talk to the office but I didn't know what for. We had been working for about 5 minutes when one of my friends finally told me what was going on that there was a school shooting at Arapahoe High School. My heart just sank all these worries started going though my head like is my dad okay, is this really happening , why did they do that all these questions that I did not have an answer for. I didn't know what to do I panic I just stood there for a minute trying to take in what I had just heard. I started crying after that because I was worried and had so many questions that I couldn't answer at the time. My Language Arts teacher was not in the library when I had started crying but when she found me crying she took me to my counselor. My counselor had to get me as calm as possible first before we did anything because I couldn't think. We did some breathing and then she suggested that we call my mom and ask if she knew anything. It was really good to hear her voice and to know that my dad was okay. My counselor asked my mom if she could come pick me up because I couldn't focus on school work I was too scared. My mom asked how she could get into the building with a lock out my counselor said that she just needed to show her ID and she would be able to get into the building. When they said I could go get my stuff all I wanted to do was run all the way  to my backpack and talk no one the anxiety was getting the better of me. When I went to get my  backpack from the pod I got 5 hugs reassuring me that everything was going to be okay. After I got my stuff I went back to the counselors office to wait for my mom. Then my mom and I went home to wait to hear from my dad. My dad called and said that we could go pick him up at first I felt like I couldn't see him but after a while I was like okay lets go. We picked him up and we went home.  We talked about it some and I asked questions but no body knows the answer to this day. 



I know that that shooting made the whole community stronger and willing to help but why do bad things always have happen first can't we just do that all the time?

I know this took me a long time to get around to writing I just wasn't sure what to say.

Our Trip

These are some pictures of our trip. It was really fun for to see my family.

My cousin

My  cousin and his aunt (my mom)

Holding my cousin

My cousin and his uncle (my dad)

Helping my cousin open presents

Holding my cousin

Holding my cousin

All 3 cousins

All 3 cousins

My cousin reading a book with  her aunt (my mom)

My aunt holding my cousin

My cousin playing on her aunt's ipad (my mom)

My cousin with my grandma and uncle (my dad)

Close up of my cousin

This is the updated version of a  previous Fisch family picture

My cousin with his aunt ( my mom)

A Big Post Is Coming

I just wanted to let you guys know that there is a post coming we are going to see my cousins and my grandparents so we will take pictures then I will post that.

Things That I Am Thankful For

These are the things that I am thankful for and I would love to hear what you are thankful for also.

Here are my things that I am thankful for.
My parents
My dog
My cousins (Mara and Barrett)
My grandparents
My aunts and uncles
My friends that are like sisters to me because we have known each other since we where babies, and have stuck with me through the long run (Sabrina, Shanley, Jianni, Josie, Katie, Nell, Libby, Kaitlyn.)
My good friends that have stuck with me (way too many to list.)
My teachers past and present (too many to list.)
That I have a house to live in my whole life.
My electronics.
The furnace and air conditioner.

Adoption Video

Our 13th anniversary of my parents and I meeting for the first time is in a few days and I figured I would share this now when I have time. This video was taken in China through out their trip to get me. It includes video of when we first met, when I was 8 months old.

5 guys on 1 piano

I thought you would enjoy watching this because I liked how they all played on one piano and how it sounded like the song not just random notes.

 

This I Believe

This is the first writing I have done this year if you guys could tell me what you think that would be great!







One hospital. Several tubes. Machines. Beeping noises. 2 bags at my grandma’s feet. All these thing are going into her body. It is hard to watch someone you love slowly die.I believe that family is the most important thing that you have in your life.

You can’t just take family for granted because they aren’t always going to be there for you. Just enjoy what time you have with your family (even your parents). So I was always playing with my grandma when I was younger. We would play hide and seek, read books, play sports, go for walks, shoot the ball into the arm hoop, ring around the rosey, foot drum, play hand games basically anything we could find to do that was fun. I was always sitting right outside the bedroom or bathroom door waiting for my grandma to get out of bed or the shower, I would even peek under the crack in the door to see if she was standing at the sink or in the shower or drying her hair. She would almost always trip over me because I was sitting where she needed to walk. Plus she would do my hair too. I would love when my grandma came to visit because she was always happy to see me and play with me. I know that she would always be there and listen.

But then suddenly we had to go start visiting my grandma then her coming to us. Then all of the sudden I started to think huh maybe she wouldn’t be around all the time and that scared me more than anything else because I had told myself that she was always going to be there. I started to think that she was not going to be with me much longer and die without me getting to say goodbye to her. That was fun to go to her and we started playing and talking about different things like we read together instead of her reading to me all the time. We did more adult things rather than little kid things all the time. Yes, we still had fun but we did different activities than when I was younger.

Then one day I am standing in a intensive care unit with my parents and my grandma is laying a bed, can’t do anything just lying there. That scared the crap out of me. I didn’t know how to react or how I could talk to her without freaking out (because she couldn’t answer me so I didn’t know if she was hearing me or not). There was a saying in my head going oh my god how did this happen to somebody that I care so much about. She almost died 4 times in a 5 week span of being in the intensive care unit. That scared me more than anything just thinking that one day soon she will die I would not get to say a proper goodbye to her. But then after those 5 weeks in the intensive care unit she started to improve. She got to get out of the intensive care unit and went into the nursing home and then finally after half a year of being in the intensive care unit for 5 weeks, in a regular hospital room for another 5 weeks and then going to a nursing home and staying there for another 2 months, she got to go home finally. I was so happy that she was alive and great considering what condition she was in.


I believe that family is the most important thing in your life. I still take my family for granted sometimes, too. So next time when you are sitting with your extended family and you get mad at somebody just remember that they are not going to be there for you someday. Just remember when you are sitting a hospital with a family member you care so much about and watch them slowly die and you can’t talk to them. Think did I ever get mad at this person or hurt them would they be thinking the same thing that I am right now. Just remember enjoy all the time that you have with your family